Wedding planning sucks more than it doesn't suck...

I've never really wanted to have a wedding. I thought it would be super cool to do one of those destination weddings. I just don't want to have to deal with the stress of planning. It's retarded!!! If Jimmy and I were doing it the way I want to do it, we would already be married!

I just feel like I'm trying to please everyone else. It's my wedding so I should be happy and excited too! Our parents want a wedding...Jimmy wants a wedding...I DON'T want a wedding! I'm getting all of this advice and input from everyone else about how I should do it and what they like, but I'm doing all of the work for something I ultimately don't want! BLAH!

Please excuse my complaining but I know I'll feel MUCH better when I'm finished typing this :)

Also, if anyone is willing, I need some advice...

I'm insanely jealous because some cool peeps that Jimmy and I know got engaged shortly after us and they are getting married before us. I know that it's completely retarded that I feel jealous. It actually shocks me that it bothers me so much because I'm not a jealous person. I also know that when my wedding rolls around, this situation will not matter to me. I guess it frustrates me because of my previous frustration of not really wanting a wedding. If I had it my way (see above), Jimmy and I would be married by the end of the year. I'm letting this situation piss me off way too much and I dont know how to get it off the brain. So, if you guys have any words of wisdom, that would be much appreciated :)